Yup. Just my life. I figured I needed to do that. (Anyway my blog's kinda dead. ._. )
Which comes to my conlusion this week, I'm upset on being Sec4. Upset for O Levels, and more importantly, upset about leaving choir DIS YEAR. I don't think I can stand it, I love it so much. Someone remind me to bring tissues on that day. It's really hard to leave choir with all my WONDERFUL juniors, and remembering GREAT seniors as well. Really, it is. And because it's my last year, I really hope to get through the auditions for SYF this year and help the choir get GOLD WITH HONORS. We can do it! I want to achieve something for choir before I go, so I won't have any regrets. As I always think, "Be happy in life, don't do things you will regret later." I want to be happy.
But sometimes, it's really hard to be, and yet, I force a smile on my face, and act wonderfully happy. I don't want to upset others anymore if I'm unhappy. I don't want to spread unhappiness. Of course, sometimes I may inevitably do it, and I apologise if I have offended anyone before.
Sometimes, I just really want a person to complain about my life, just to get things off my back, and not annoy him/her for doing that and he/she will be understanding. It's hard to find someone like that, cause sometimes there's personal stuff that some people might not understand.
It hurts. It hurts very badly, but "If you love someone, you'll want him to be happy." It's true. I want him to be happy, not upset, or I'll hurt even more too. So even though I'm hurting, I just want him to be happy. That's enough. I never asked for someone to love me back. It can't be forced.
...I feel like I'm getting really emo.
posted by melodine @ 8:58 PM
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