Yeah, I know, I'm supposed to be happy and all, given my blog name...
But...
FREAK. Seriously,
F R E A K.
I'm rather upset over what happened just now, or rather, what I just saw. It's
depressing. Actually, it was horrible.
I had just gotten home from school, after chinese remedial. I got off at my bus stop and started to walk home. But you see, there was this whole patch of grass just opposite my back gate, and while I was walking on the path...
I saw a black kitten lying on the grass. It was only, what, the size of my palm. Normally, I would go AWWWWW, as I usually do, right?
But it wasn't MOVING. At this, I felt myself go totally stiff. I kept denying what my head told me. I went, "No, it can't be, it must be sleeping, right?" But I was making excuses. Keeping myself from the truth, trying to hide in denial.
I didn't stay there for long. Cause when I pushed open the gate home, I was stammering. "Ma...uh...just now ah, I think I saw...it's not moving..." She must have understood me, and went, "I saw it." And then, she broke the truth, which I was so scared to confront.
It was dead.
Dead. My brain went into permanent blackout. I still tried to deny. No...no... But I heard it. And I knew, deep down inside, that it was horribly true. I started to cry.
It hurt. I mean, it was so small, so tiny...so...young. It didn't get much...or even a chance to live. Why? Why did God have to take away a life whose footsteps barely walked this world, it's bright eyes taking in everything around it?
I realised life is fragile. So very fragile.
It can be snuffed out so very suddenly, when you least expect it.
I cried. Cried for this kitten who lost it's life. Cried for a LIFE.
Actually, in a rather ironic way, it touched my life. I realised I care. I care for lives. And I'm gonna show that I do. I swear, I'm going to help out in SPCA when I become of age. And I want to adopt a kitten, just like it, and raise it. One day. =)
Because simply caring isn't enough anymore. It's what you do that counts.
TANG YU ZHE
Yeah I said people might get bored reading about my obsessions...but I didn't say I wouldn't spazz. ='D
And this is the first time I've gone rather fangirly over a GUY. A REAL GUY.
And it's because of Hanazakarino Kimitachie. Oh and if you wanna ask, yes, I spelt that out ON MY OWN. I kinda memorised it by now. xD If you're really dense or blur, as Singaporeans say, it's Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu, 花樣少年少女.
And no, I'm not like other girls, because they go all WAH WU ZUN/JIRO WANG. No. I prefer...another guy. =p
AND HE IS LIKE SHUAI CAN. AHHHHHHHHHH!
Some people should know by now that this is Danson Tang Yu Zhe, 唐禹哲, the guy who plays Nan Xue Zhang. Who is totally hot and awesomely cute. And I have a whole lot of pics. (HE IS LIKE SO NOT GAY. HE CAN WEAR A PINK SWEATER AND LOOK COOL.)
Hey, he can smile and look so cute, and then look serious and look freaking cool. WHERE ELSE CAN YOU FIND A GUY LIKE THAT? And he's immensely sweet on his blog. ;O; I luff him~
Which is why I want that Hua Yang book that contains pictures inside. Sold in Popularr, gah, I need to go grab it one day. :/ Yu Zhe looks so cool in there OKAY? And there's a few picture cards that are included and one of them is, you guessed it, Yu Zhe.
I'm an official freak. I think it's because some people(AHEMAHEM) taught me to be fangirly over a guy with their ways, even though it's anime and manga characters, and Yu Zhe is totally not.
Yeah, and his song 最愛還是你 is great. =) I listen to it everyday.
First time being so fangirly, I hope you guys forgive me. ='D Which reminds me, I want a blogskin with him on it, but editing the Html is gonna take a hell of a time, which I don't really have. So till, then you guys won't have to tolerate my fangirliness when I take it to the next level.
我愛唐禹哲~<3
Chivalry is DEAD
Freak it.
Have guys this days no CHIVALRY? Have all of them been brainwashed by some hogwash to become MCPs a.k.a. male chavunist pigs?
Face it girls, guys aren't what they're like in the past. I mean, look at medieval times. A knight honoured his lady, and would fight to prove that her beauty was unrivalled. It's not like we expect them to get on some smelly horse and fry themselves by wearing a metal suit and grab some random long sharp thing to poke at another guy.
And knowing their perverted minds, I think I know where they might like to point it at. Guys just don't treat girls with respect anymore, do they? Maybe there's a mere few that's out there, but I dunno. I wonder how much they rack their brains to think of a creative way to propose. Just kneel down, flash the ring and go "Will you marry me?", oh gosh, that is SOOOO cliche. Have a little imagination guys, I advise you. It's not everyday a girl gets a proposal and if you want to secure it, go all out.
...And...the guys that I talk with, please don't take this to heart. =p I'm not talking about you...
maybe I am, haha, you'll never know...but yeah. This is just saying that most men have no sense of romance at all. Please, every girl likes a decent romance thinger, right? Why I'm writing this is cause I probably bore people out by talking about my life, my obsessions in here. Yeahh. But that doesn't mean I won't. =PGrah. I can't believe my heart's giving up after this long time...okay, maybe I can...
Well, I changed my blog name. O: From unknowntitan, to optimistic-insanity. Maybe because I don't want to be that unknown person, always the quiet one in the corner. And that I started believing in being optimistic in life. And clearly being insane like I always am. <33
I wanted a new blog template, but ugh. when I downloaded it, it's of a different format of my old one so I have to learn how to edit it. xDD Which could take a long time before it replaces this one.
Oh yeah and...
-I'm not going to judge everyone by appearance. People can be only ugly on the inside. And once you know someone, you get to appereciate them(Or not?), not by their appearance.
-I want to be optimistic most of the time. ^_^
-I want to make everyone around me to be happy and feel loved. (Okay not everybody. >.> And especially not the boys. I can't do that, I only can seem to be sarcastic towards them.)
